Today is a special occasion: Not only do I celebrate my 7th year of blogging on Neologikon, but this article is officially my 400th post!
My last reflection was three years ago, for my 4-year anniversary (for whatever reason, I chose the fourth year rather than the fifth), where I talked about some of the ups and downs of my blogging journey. I will be continuing that here, expressing some of my discontents as of late while remaining hopeful for the future. Reflecting on my years of writing here, seeing how far I have come, and taking a step back, I have seen some troubling tendencies of mine, tendencies that I want to stop as early as possible, not only to improve my blog but also to be more faithful to myself and the project to which I committed myself back in 2016. Whereas last time my concern was with complacency, i.e., the fact that I had fallen into smugness and thought myself more knowledgeable than I really was, my concerns this year are a bit broader.
In the past year or so, I cannot help but feel I have betrayed my ideal and failed in the very mission of Neologikon. This sounds overly dramatic, of course, and it probably reeks of some species of idealism; however, I believe it is true, and I know so because I am the one who formulated it. It may well be argued that an ideal is an ideal precisely because it cannot be perfectly realized. Kant, throughout his critical philosophy, insists over and over again that although certain Ideas are either theoretical impossibilities or unrealized potentials, nonetheless we must not stop striving after them; in fact, it is the very non-actuality of the Idea that compels us to bring it about, even if we suspect that we will not be able to do so. Just because peace has not been achieved, or the Kingdom of Ends established, or God proven, does not mean that we should give up on any of these things. If anything, contends Kant, it means we have a duty, each of us, to bring them about, or else they will truly remain mere fictions. There is a very real sense, pragmatic in spirit, in which our continued belief in these practical objects of cognition gives them their dignity. Such is the case with philosophy itself, which is never complete and can never be completed, for the love of wisdom is notoriously unending, lest it cease being love.
So what, then, is the mission, the impossible ideal of Neologikon to which I have felt myself unequal? Quite simply, it is, as my banner states, to avoid “the unexamined life” and instead promote a life worth living. Socrates has been for me—as he has for so many others—the great inspiration behind what I do. I have always held that philosophy is a way of life. Much of this is repetitive; it is stated in my About section, it occurs in my previous anniversary post, and there are several blogs that mention this. However, it is necessary that I restate these intentions not for you, my readers, but for myself, if only because I feel that it is so incredibly easy to forget. I, the author, who see my own page so frequently, forgetting my own intentions? How is such a thing possible? Indeed, it sounds like a Socratic paradox. Because it is one. In truth, the thought is not as strange or absurd as it appears, for what is more common than that, after years of having done something continually, the beginning should imperceptibly recede until it has lost its luster, if not been forgotten altogether? When it is a matter of getting at least one post in a week, it is easy to forsake the noble aspiration with which it began in favor of the utilitarian logic of efficiency:—I’ve got to get a post in!
This much is understandable, and yet I have not even said wherein my failure consists! The question of output is certainly an important factor, the pressure (purely internal, of course) to “get something out” for the sake of being active. But not posting, or posting infrequently, have nothing to do with the ideal of Neologikon; they are merely the mark of an unproductive writer, which, since it can happen on/to any blog, is independent of the mission. Therefore, a lack of posting, while greatly pestilential to my conscience, does not constitute my gravest error; it is but a superficial shortcoming. What truly bothers me is the subtle direction that my blog has taken, a direction toward specialization, academicization, or, in a word, narrowing.
The humanities study what it is and what it means to be human. When I first started studying philosophy, it was only a matter of time until I realized that I could not avoid, well, everything else, since philosophy leaves virtually nothing untouched. My passion for philosophy overflowed like the Form of the Good, whose generosity Plato famously compared to the Sun: It seeped into all the other great disciplines, from history to literature, from religion to linguistics, and from psychology to politics. Admittedly, there is a good deal of humanistic chauvinism here; I hardly, if ever, write about the sciences—partly because I am not as learned and literate in them, in which case I leave it to others who can better communicate them, though mostly because I feel that the humanities are more fitted to the examined life. While I occasionally feel guilty over my exclusion of the sciences, I also recognize that I ought not to overextend myself; it would be awfully exhausting to study and expound so wide a range of knowledge. As it is, my selection of the humanities is in itself probably overly ambitious.
Nonetheless, what I am trying to say is that, in the past year or two, there has been a predominant focus on philosophy on my blog. This is not an inherently bad thing. If anything, it is good that philosophy, which is so underrated, under-read, and under-understood, should receive attention, particularly from someone who enjoys and studies it. Why should I, who “know” philosophy, feel bad about writing about philosophy? Should not an economist write about economics, a biologist biology, or an art historian art history? Notwithstanding that I am not a professional philosopher, my concern is that my blog is not a “philosophy blog” but a humanities one, yet I have been giving preferential treatment to the former.
I am aware that interests change over time, so it is perfectly reasonable to suppose that I simply prefer philosophy and have shifted my focus exclusively thereon; however, this is not the case, because I still enjoy learning about other subjects. The explanation is twofold: First, as I am studying primarily philosophy in school right now, it is to be expected that I will write about it more; and second, even outside of school, philosophy exercises the greatest hold upon me, and it constitutes the bulk of my personal reading, besides literature. At the end of the day, I am not saying that I want to write less about philosophy but only that I want to write more about other things. So going forward, my hope is to be a bit more varied and wide-ranging in my posts (psychology and linguistics, for example, have gone neglected for a while!).
Still, in addition to the desire for diversity, the other reason I do not want to be preoccupied with philosophy is because I find that, over time, by means of an almost ineluctable natural law, I have been inching, lamentably, toward specialization, which
phenomenon I have always deplored. The tendency toward specialization is both external and internal, the former because it is required/expected within academia and society at large (without which both would collapse), and internal because each of us is naturally drawn toward certain things more than others through affinity. As such, you will find that, for example, phenomenology, a philosophical movement that began in the early 20th century, and Heidegger, a German phenomenologist, figure quite often in my writing, since they call to me so strongly. Again, deciding that phenomenology is one’s “thing” is not bad; if I can successfully share my joy in phenomenological philosophy and make it, or even Heidegger, more accessible to people, then I will have done a good thing.
That is beside the point, though. I do not want to just write about phenomenology, nor do I want to specialize in a specific philosopher (as much as I might admire their thinking), nor do I want to confine myself to philosophy as a whole. I like to think back to my self in 2016, when I first started blogging and the world of learning was infinite—which is not to say that, now, it is no longer infinite, but only that my vision has narrowed, so that infinity is a little less: Back then, I would have disliked the idea of being “the philosophy guy,” because I thought, and still think, that this is an arbitrary self-limitation. As strange as it sounds, I think that a philosopher should not simply think about philosophy. To reiterate, I know I am allowed to change my attitude as I grow older, but the fact is that my attitude has not changed; I truly believe that I am doing a disservice to myself in shrinking my content.
But while specialization ought to be avoided, the alternative—polymathy, or generalization—is basically impossible in this age. A youthful me might have been more idealistic, but I am well aware that my research in history, religion, politics, etc. is necessarily limited; nonetheless, I think curiosity should not be dissuaded, so that even if I am not a historian, I shall continue to have an
interest in, and hence to study, the past. This brings me to the themes of audience and presentation. We all start out on a pretty level playing field, then we learn, consolidate, and specialize. Thus, my latest blogs, in contrast to my earliest ones, show a greater familiarity with names, terminologies, and connections between ideas, which, on the one hand, facilitates a broader intellectual discourse but, on the other hand, can serve as an impediment or deterrent to most readers who have little-to-no acquaintance with the subjects on which I write, particularly when I am more knowledgeable about them. In other words, it is easier to write for amateurs when one is an amateur oneself, moved by pure love unalloyed by extensive intellectualization. Some of my latest blogs, like those on Kant or Heidegger, suffer from such a sacrifice. Not only do I resist counting myself among the academics, but I also resist writing to and for them exclusively. Henceforward, I want to be more accessible, although without thereby being an oversimplifier, which is by no means an innocent counterbalance.
One of the reasons for my inconsistent posting is that my writing has been getting progressively longer. This is why a lot of posts tend to be split up into parts. These longer works are fulfilling upon completion, yet their composition often provokes dread in me because of my perfectionism and chronic laziness. And for whatever reason, the former also talks me out of shorter posts. It is really an irrational problem, which is why I will try to overcome it henceforth. If longer projects are daunting, and if shorter posts are easier to research, quicker to write, and more accessible to readers (e.g., my recent post on Aristotle), then it is incontestable that I ought to produce shorter posts, which will lessen the demand upon me. Longer projects do enthrall me, so I will not be giving them up; rather, I will merely make them more occasional, both for your and my own sake. Intelligent scholarship is important to me, but I want to make sure this is destroyed by neither incomprehension nor dullness.
Lastly, returning to my conviction that philosophy ought to be vital, that is, a way of life, I want to stress that from the beginning, my hope was for Neologikon to contribute in some way to “the examined life.” Various factors make this difficult to actualize—among them, formal factors (specialization/jargon) and material ones (specific thinkers/subjects). The question of applicability, relevance, or importance will inevitably correspond to the discipline in question, whether it be philosophy, history, or literature. Many people find that literature directly impacts their lives in a profound way, yet few walk away from a history book having been transformed (meanwhile, we assume that psychology is by nature applied). Thus, relevance cannot always be my object; not all of what I study and write about is readily usable or significant for one’s existence.
All the same, that—significance—is the primary end. In each of my introductions and conclusions, I aim to explain, or at least hint toward, the possible importance of the topic in question. Even with as abstract, confusing, and hyperspecific a topic as Heidegger on Kant on Being, I tried my best, albeit with some difficulty, to demonstrate some sort of interest for the reader; it may be forced and overly tenuous—perhaps it is even a rationalization on the behalf of its author who wants to feel as though what they wrote is not simply worthless, a mere “curiosity” or a “contribution to the literature” with which the layperson has nothing to do, but actually has some sort of takeaway, no matter how far-fetched—but it is an effort.
There is a double standard at work, though—invisible but real. If what I write about is to have some sort of importance in the life of the reader, if it is supposed to provoke in them thought at least or action at most, then one can reasonably presume that the same not only should, but does in fact, go for me myself, the writer; otherwise, there is something contradictory at work. Put another
way, if you are supposed to have “gotten something” from what I wrote, then it means that I myself “got something” out of what I wrote about, or else, why would I have written about it? The logic here does not hold, however, because there is always the possibility that I could share something to which I was personally indifferent but which awakens something in the reader. Therefore, the standard of significance need not go both ways in order to be valid. A director can make a movie she dislikes but which her audience loves, and a poem without heart in it may still deeply touch a reader. With this in mind, what might it mean that I, part of whose mission is to inspire wonder in others, often do not feel wonder myself? Is this a failure or not? Is it hypocritical for me to suggest that my reader implement, say, Aristotle’s Nicomachean Ethics into their lives without doing so myself? Perhaps these can be brushed off as mere pseudo-problems, bits of condensation that I need merely to wipe away as if they were raindrops on my window.
I am inclined to disagree, though. “What would Socrates say?“—ah, yes, good ‘ole Socrates—what would he say, he who died for philosophy, who preached for the examined life, who committed his life to goodness and virtue, who lived on conversation—what would he say? Of great importance to Socrates was the alignment of one’s actions to one’s words or beliefs. When one contradicts oneself, acts contrary to one’s beliefs, then one’s soul is in disorder; there is no harmony in one’s life; such a soul is unhealthy and must be restored to its proper order, which is unity. In this sense, I am culpable.
Alexander Nehamas, in his book The Art of Living: Socratic Reflections from Plato to Foucault (1998), gives a splendid close reading and analysis of “Platonic irony” (not to be confused with Socratic irony, or the feigning of ignorance) in his Dialogues, by which he arrives at a startling, distressing conclusion: We who read the Platonic dialogues are really their subjects. That is, Nehamas notes that there is a kind of smugness that typically results from reading over one of Socrates’ conversations with an Athenian. In the first place, we are distanced from Socrates in time, by a matter of centuries. Second, we are sitting down, perhaps in a comfortable place, reading a book that we can put down at any point and which, in itself, is mute; the words on the page have no meaning until, or if, we read them. Third, and more troublesome, is the complacency of the reader who does not participate (directly) in the brutal refutation and who has the assurance of retrospect, being able to laugh at the humiliated interlocutor, e.g., Euthyphro, while in full, prideful agreement with Socrates, the master dialectician.
Nehamas points out that it is easy to finish a dialogue, conclude “Yeah, Socrates totally exposed him!”—as if patting ourselves on the back for having accomplished such a feat ourselves—and then go on with the rest of our days, feeling enlightened and all the wiser for having read Plato. And this is where the trap springs! We convince ourselves that we are like Socrates, but Nehamas argues that Plato wrote his works in such a way that, actually, we are not like Socrates, nor are we even like Euthyphro or Polus—instead, we are worse off than the latter. While it is easy to pity Socrates’ dialogue partners, we overlook that they at least had the courage to engage Socrates in the first place. Sure, some like Callicles are stubborn, narrow-minded, and anti-intellectual, but he at least does not run like Gorgias does.
Meanwhile, we readers have the luxury of following the dialogue externally, without any stake, knowing it will end with Socrates having successfully refuted his opponent. We can thus walk away unscathed. All of this, I am aware, might sound unfair. For starters, Socrates is not alive today, of course, so even the bravest among us who would be willing to take him up in conversation have not the choice to. All we have are the Dialogues. Furthermore, I have been saying “we” throughout, but there are surely exceptional people who would prove me and Nehamas wrong because not only do they read actively, coming up with their own responses and counterarguments to Socrates as they go instead of passively taking it, but they also ruminate for days afterward and even try to live by what they came up with. Unfortunately, not everyone has this courage, resolve, or leisure, so I think Nehamas’ analysis is for the most part true, even if we do not want to admit it (I certainly am loath to).
My point in bringing up Nehamas’ The Art of Living has been to show that living philosophically, truly applying philosophy—or any other learning for that matter—to one’s life, is easier said than done. Reading is one thing, imbibing is another, and yet another is acting. The one does not always guarantee the latter. One does not become virtuous by reading Aristotle; the moral law is not easier to abide by after reading Kant. The implication is an audacious one, but I guess I will risk audacity anyway in stating that, ideally, Neologikon is a vehicle for just this lively appropriation. Perhaps neither my readers nor I will be magically transformed through a blog, but then again, not all transformations need be magical. A few weeks ago, over dinner with a friend of mine, I confessed to him that I envied his passion for Plato and Aristotle and that I wished I could feel that same kind of intensity of purpose again.
Reading and writing all these seven years has been a tremendous experience, but I also recognize that it can dull my sharpness. Knowledge is not wisdom. And when, as I said, reading and writing become matters of reaching a deadline, being productive, or “informing” others, it is easy to lose sight of wisdom for knowledge. Philosophy, which is the love of wisdom, the examined life, cannot just be “read” then “spread”; it must be appropriated for oneself, internalized, repeated—in a word, philosophy must be lived. So while I cannot promise that all of my posts will fulfill this lofty goal, I will keep trying. (I have in mind, as an example, my old post on Heidegger and Mindfulness, which I think is representative in that it sketches out a possible transformation of one’s basic attitude toward the world.)
If I can provoke thought, induce wonder, or inspire, then I will count that as a great success. I doubt I will change lives, but if I can, and if only in the most minute of ways, then I will feel greatly fulfilled. These past seven years have been good ones, and the future is fruitful. Here is to the future of Neologikon—and to the examined life, the only one worth living.
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